By Chad Armbruster

Forgive me readers for I have sinned. It's been 111 days since my last article and I have no good reason. However fear not my friends for I have gone through many life changes over the past few months. No, I don't mean the typical Cape Girardeau life change, which requires the use of a gerbil, chunky peanut butter, a keg of Stag, super glue and a nice shade of mauve lipstick. I'm talking about the deep soul searching kind of life change that make you snap out of that "quasi-8am BS105 lecture" type of daze and say, "What in the hell have I been doing all this time?" I know what you're thinking, "I could have had that kind of soul searching without the peanut butter?" but let's not forget my little Smurflings, it's all in the wrist.

After four different types of medication I'm still going on about my life trying to find out what work and what doesn't. (Note to self: try soul searching with a rubber band.) But I guess the real triumph is that I'm still trying. Even though I knew going into this whole "anti-depressant medication" thing it was going to be difficult, I never really expected to be how I am today. And who am I today? Well, that's a good question and I guess it would depend on whom you asked. I think I'm a little bit kinder and a lot more aware of my actions, and myself than I was a few months ago. Why am I telling all of this?

Because, it's important to know that once you realize that there is a problem in the way you function as an individual the change necessary it not always as immediate as one had hoped or even expected. However, the desired change will come with time and persistence even if you can't get a hold of a gerbil. (See, and I bet you thought I was going to go a whole paragraph without a joke) The point is summed up by this quote I got off of the net about the sayings of Buddha: "Things which are wrong and to one's own disadvantage are easily enough done, while what is both good and advantageous is extremely hard to do." Now, I don't use this quote to enter the religious arena but I think it makes the point nicely.

So, while this article is short (but sweeter than the Stag) I think I've said all I can say about my actions over the past few months. Besides I still have homework to do and I believe my running joke is getting stale. Until next we meet, ponder this question: Can you name 5 characters from the He-Man cartoon series?